I’ve always had a great family and good friends for some reason for the longest time I felt so alone. I no longer knew how to open up about me or what I’m feeling.
To be honest I didn’t even know was feeling.
All I knew was that I was lonely.
I mention something to my dad and he told me to write down everything I want and prey about it. So, I did. While writing, I realised I wanted a friend. a Sister. Someone to Love Me.
I didn’t want anyone to think I was an attention seaker so I kept smiling. Always.
When I was alone I just slept or blasted music because I didn’t want to hear my thought.
I walked Five months without god and they pass by with me feeling lost and as though i wasn’t able to trust anyone.
To be honest I didn’t want to live any more.
( I wasn’t depressed.
I know I wasn’t.
I was just lonely. )
And Because I felt alone I wanted to die. but there was no way I was going to do that to my mum or dad.
The 21st of January youth camp began.
I really didn’t want to be there.
But while I was there, I met a girl. She’s not like anyone that I’d met before.
She thinks differently to everyone. When I met her it’s like she was reading my mind. She just got me. I’ve had people understand and connect with me. But this was different.
I opened up and cried in front of this girl more in the past 7 days than I have to anyone in the past two years.
Even though I have my best friend, sister, someone to love me! I now know I am never alone! And I will never be alone! Because God is there. He was waiting. He is waiting. He’s waiting for you! He’s calling your name ! He’s screaming your name! Like he did mine His yelled for me “LILLY LILLY! You’re not alone I’m here for you!” And not Matter how many times I just ignored him or betrayed him. He’s there every time. Waiting for me! Waiting for you! So whenever you’re ready He is.
If you’re feeling the way I was.
This is not a “5 step guide to feel good about yourself”
It is me, telling you, about a blessing that God has given me.
I don’t know what’s happening in your life right now,
But God is GOOD.
And God is REAL.
And you need him in your life, or you’re living hopelessly and being Lead astray by confusing, unaccepting, unforgiving worldly ways.
It’s really not that hard to go from feeling how you may be feeling to feeling and being everything you’ve ever wanted to feel and be!
He’s waiting for you!
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